HELLO! HELLO! OMG! I just got back from the prefect punya camp and I'm immensely excited! wohhoo!
So okay, I'm gonna start elaborating the whole thing that I had encountered with at the camp.
Day 1,
We were given a talk on leadership skills. Yeah you heard me, LEADERSHIP, and as expected, it was a long hours of boredness. But then, without the talk, the prefect's camp would not meet its purpose. So yeah, looking at it now, rugi jugak if we missed out on the ceramah. Pretty glad I paid my full attention to the speaker. Then after the talk ended, we check-in our hostel. So we went, pasang cadar and stuffs, took our baths and gather at the dining hall to have our dinner, then we went for solat jemaah at the surau. That night, we gathered again at the dining hall and there were a little briefing on the schedule.
Day 2
We woke up at 4.30++am as we didn't want to berebut later with the girls to take our baths. And I'm pretty glad we woke up that early even though we slept really late the night before. After that, we went to the surau for subuh prayer. It was kinda funny to see the girls sleeping during the tazkirah pagi, I understand, it was tiring and the talk just couldn't get any longer. There was this morning exercise afterwards and we went for breakfast. Soon, the first agenda of the day started which is this talk about communication skills and other stuffs. We were introduced to 9 facilitators all from UMT and had some sort of games later on before the dudes went for the Friday prayer. The girls went back to respective dorms, and had a little rest. We gathered back at the hall for other activities that was scheduled for us and also had this game 'Kembara Pemimpin' which is the main highlight of the day. It was super awesome as I hardly had camps before and what had made the game much much more interesting is that there were this cute guy. Like Omg, comelnyaa! haha. So that night, we had our last agenda of the day, the 'Malam Kebudayaan' thing. It was well, partially boring to be frank. It made us stayed up too late and we were super sleepy. Thank god it actually ended.
Day 3
Excited! we're going back home! wohoo! So once again as scheduled, we had this closing ceremony to ceremonise? everything. yeah. We had that thing and went for lunch. At lunch, Omg this cute guy was there with his friend. I was about to take my not-so-last bite of rice when the dudes came in. I'm like so excited that I asked my friend to take another piece of watermelon for me so that I could stay there longer. hehe *winks.
So as we were gossiping and almost flirting, the dude somehow macam perasan that we were eye-ing him all these while. I'm like malu gilaa and was blushing like crazy, Aaaaa! :O Kitaorang went out instantly then out of nowhere, I've accidently bumped into his friend, like seriously bumped into his friend(should've been him *sigh -_-) He had a little laugh after that. That's when I suffered another embarrassment , haishh.
Everything went smooth, Alhamdulillah. I had my experiences in handling this and that as well as making new friends. Those days were pure exhaustion , but I sure had benefit a lot from it. Thanks to those who had been responsible in making this camp a success to me :D
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
Wasted efforts.
Hookayy, this is great. I miss expressing my emotional distressed. So, here we go.., hello :)
As always, there has been something pushing me, well inspires me to type. Back then, not too long ago, there was this one time where I had thought of typing and expressing something I've long kept in mind but something came up, and I've lost the interest to continue with that unfulfilled intention. So right now, I'm pretty glad that I have everything quite in place this time. Yeah..
Okay,
I'm not sure for how much does this thing has to bother me, but it does and at times, it gave me this sense of realisation that I don't really have to do so. Simply because its worthless. In a way. Well, picture this, you've paid just too much of your precious efforts and time for the sake of contenting your inner self urge (if that's what you think it is) the thing you don't know is that you're putting yourself at this one point where the things that you do aren't specially done for your own goodness sake. Like, you "think" that you want to lose weight. You imagined yourself looking extra gorgeous, carrying less pounds within your body, and good news, you actually worked for it. But then the result isn't always what you pictured it'd be. You stopped, and you give up. But the actual truth behind the unappreciated efforts there is because someone told you to do so. They convinced you that you'd look better, but what do they know? You're miserable going after for that goal, because it was not for you, that you're doing it. It was because someone told you to. Someone who doesn't even care to accept you for who your are inside, they're ashamed to get closed to you, because of that unconcealed flaws of yours. It's vividly pointing out. Everything always falls to the demanding superficial. You see, that's when the word VAIN came into the picture. Why would you rather do things that would not benefit you in any which way you could ever imagined? At the end of the story, its not happiness that you would achieve, because you're not making yourself happy. Yes, its true, that a person could motivate you to change but is it the right person you get motivations from? Is it even the right motivations? Things like this kept on circling my inner thoughts. Even if the situations are not the same, the consequences are. I'm gonna put a halt to this topic now, Good night.
As always, there has been something pushing me, well inspires me to type. Back then, not too long ago, there was this one time where I had thought of typing and expressing something I've long kept in mind but something came up, and I've lost the interest to continue with that unfulfilled intention. So right now, I'm pretty glad that I have everything quite in place this time. Yeah..
Okay,
I'm not sure for how much does this thing has to bother me, but it does and at times, it gave me this sense of realisation that I don't really have to do so. Simply because its worthless. In a way. Well, picture this, you've paid just too much of your precious efforts and time for the sake of contenting your inner self urge (if that's what you think it is) the thing you don't know is that you're putting yourself at this one point where the things that you do aren't specially done for your own goodness sake. Like, you "think" that you want to lose weight. You imagined yourself looking extra gorgeous, carrying less pounds within your body, and good news, you actually worked for it. But then the result isn't always what you pictured it'd be. You stopped, and you give up. But the actual truth behind the unappreciated efforts there is because someone told you to do so. They convinced you that you'd look better, but what do they know? You're miserable going after for that goal, because it was not for you, that you're doing it. It was because someone told you to. Someone who doesn't even care to accept you for who your are inside, they're ashamed to get closed to you, because of that unconcealed flaws of yours. It's vividly pointing out. Everything always falls to the demanding superficial. You see, that's when the word VAIN came into the picture. Why would you rather do things that would not benefit you in any which way you could ever imagined? At the end of the story, its not happiness that you would achieve, because you're not making yourself happy. Yes, its true, that a person could motivate you to change but is it the right person you get motivations from? Is it even the right motivations? Things like this kept on circling my inner thoughts. Even if the situations are not the same, the consequences are. I'm gonna put a halt to this topic now, Good night.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Contemplations.
Hey.
I'm currently in need of a little writing for something had driven me to this.
and worst,
I CANT sleep. ARGHH!
Hello people,
So yeah, that was quite an odd starter, for a strongly civilized people.
I've been thinking lately. Well actually, contemplates. On the scenarios that's precariously evolved around me. I might be stressed, but I can't be sure. Because sometimes, we're misjudged by the superficial. The actual thing is, I am tired. Tired of thinking on ways to shift my unneeded thoughts to something else, to please people everywhere and to search for the uncertainty. I'm just immensely exhausted. Would these things lead me somewhere? to a better path? because I am desperately in search of happiness which is of course, should be thoroughly understand and properly defined.
Good Night.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
dee-cem-berr.
Well, its actually 'December' with the wrongest spelling. Good Morning and Hi.
Recently, I've posted something I've kept to myself for long and the result, MAJOR heartbreak. So this is a very good advice to spread. Don't keep these kind of things to yourself because if you're not strong enough, you could end up being very vulnerable, just like me. And if only you had shared it before with someone you trust, the fact would be different. I mean, it should hurt less since you have someone to confide in and the result, well LESS grieve stricken for sure. But that's a different story, what I really want to convey here is, for the moment, I'm glad to say that I've moved on. I'm not pretty sure about next year, but hey, time would heal things and I solely believe in that.
So yeah, some lucky people had read the 'thing' I've posted, clearly weeks ago (probably had it removed by now). It was a very long writing, well the longest I've written so far I guess and what I've got to say is, thank you. For the feedback and advices. I must admit, that was by far, the strangest thing I did in my writings. Preferably, blog writings. Though there is nothing wrong about that, it somehow did sounds a little 'abusive'. Needless to say, it was the result of being in a massive heartbreak and for not trusting people to open up these things. I've learned valuable lessons in dealing with both, an unexpected heartbreak and trusting people with your problems and when I mentioned 'dealing' surely does meant that I've dealt with it. Well, remnants of it.
Lets just leave that behind. In fact, lets just leave all of the bad things you've dealt with far far behind for you've learned and gained more once you've experienced it firsthand. Don't assume mistakes as a bad element that resurface in your life. Its there for a reason. A very valid reason. It makes you a stronger person. A tough person who could render through the worst tornado. Cliche'? yeah, noticed that too. As cheesy as it sounds, you can't deny living facts. You go by its rules, you live by it.
Alright now, 2010's coming to an end, there are a lot to look at , a lot to reminisce, a lot to treasure, a lot to keep and a lot to let go. I believe that we had rendered difficult journeys and beat the odds in our lives that are sometimes hard to decipher, translate and to understand but it transform us into a different person, day by day, experience by experience. We never know what will lies ahead, for a future had been written and stored for us.
Recently, I've posted something I've kept to myself for long and the result, MAJOR heartbreak. So this is a very good advice to spread. Don't keep these kind of things to yourself because if you're not strong enough, you could end up being very vulnerable, just like me. And if only you had shared it before with someone you trust, the fact would be different. I mean, it should hurt less since you have someone to confide in and the result, well LESS grieve stricken for sure. But that's a different story, what I really want to convey here is, for the moment, I'm glad to say that I've moved on. I'm not pretty sure about next year, but hey, time would heal things and I solely believe in that.
So yeah, some lucky people had read the 'thing' I've posted, clearly weeks ago (probably had it removed by now). It was a very long writing, well the longest I've written so far I guess and what I've got to say is, thank you. For the feedback and advices. I must admit, that was by far, the strangest thing I did in my writings. Preferably, blog writings. Though there is nothing wrong about that, it somehow did sounds a little 'abusive'. Needless to say, it was the result of being in a massive heartbreak and for not trusting people to open up these things. I've learned valuable lessons in dealing with both, an unexpected heartbreak and trusting people with your problems and when I mentioned 'dealing' surely does meant that I've dealt with it. Well, remnants of it.
Lets just leave that behind. In fact, lets just leave all of the bad things you've dealt with far far behind for you've learned and gained more once you've experienced it firsthand. Don't assume mistakes as a bad element that resurface in your life. Its there for a reason. A very valid reason. It makes you a stronger person. A tough person who could render through the worst tornado. Cliche'? yeah, noticed that too. As cheesy as it sounds, you can't deny living facts. You go by its rules, you live by it.
Alright now, 2010's coming to an end, there are a lot to look at , a lot to reminisce, a lot to treasure, a lot to keep and a lot to let go. I believe that we had rendered difficult journeys and beat the odds in our lives that are sometimes hard to decipher, translate and to understand but it transform us into a different person, day by day, experience by experience. We never know what will lies ahead, for a future had been written and stored for us.
Good Luck, in dealing with the unexpected.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Be surprised, its already July-August-September-OCTOBER!
Hello,
Believe it or not, we're already in the midst of October .How time flies, lets just retrace the things that had happend in the past 3 months. Alright, so the final weeks July had been incredibly hectic for me. Apparently I got involved in activities that are, well, umm school based? I don't know if its not the pleasurous time to spend for others, but it is a heck of a fun for me. Since July marks its end for the extra co-curricular activities throughout the year 2010, there were joyous ceremonies held, according to its very own occasions. July 24th marks a remarkable history for SMKSS as his royal highness, the paramount ruler of the state pays a little visit. Sadly, I was not there to witness the whole ceremony since I have to attend my cousin's wedding reception, which is also the most awesome thing ever since there were hot dudes there (awww!). Back to the story, so in about a week after that, we had this drama thing going on and all of the form 4 students were involved. It was an undeniably awesome experience, I mean the whole preparations and practices did really paid off. Although we did not grab any spot for the place-ings, I'm greatly thankful as the whole drama turns out to be unexpectedly FUN! and ouh right now, we've past the fasting month, that's right, the holy month of Ramadhan and we've celebrated Hari Raya as well in Syawal of course. Regarding the Hari Raya celebration, we did'nt have much feasts, it was rather on the "OK" term as I labelled it. September had past, and since we're already in the midst of October, lets just render through it!
Believe it or not, we're already in the midst of October .How time flies, lets just retrace the things that had happend in the past 3 months. Alright, so the final weeks July had been incredibly hectic for me. Apparently I got involved in activities that are, well, umm school based? I don't know if its not the pleasurous time to spend for others, but it is a heck of a fun for me. Since July marks its end for the extra co-curricular activities throughout the year 2010, there were joyous ceremonies held, according to its very own occasions. July 24th marks a remarkable history for SMKSS as his royal highness, the paramount ruler of the state pays a little visit. Sadly, I was not there to witness the whole ceremony since I have to attend my cousin's wedding reception, which is also the most awesome thing ever since there were hot dudes there (awww!). Back to the story, so in about a week after that, we had this drama thing going on and all of the form 4 students were involved. It was an undeniably awesome experience, I mean the whole preparations and practices did really paid off. Although we did not grab any spot for the place-ings, I'm greatly thankful as the whole drama turns out to be unexpectedly FUN! and ouh right now, we've past the fasting month, that's right, the holy month of Ramadhan and we've celebrated Hari Raya as well in Syawal of course. Regarding the Hari Raya celebration, we did'nt have much feasts, it was rather on the "OK" term as I labelled it. September had past, and since we're already in the midst of October, lets just render through it!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
2nd semester of school break, yippie!
Heyho,
I have not been writing anything for the longest time and the excitement of it had been left dilapidated. Even if it's coiled around such absurdity, who cares aite? So yeah, things have been great for me these day, Alhamdulillah. I love how things, environment, people has been painting my life and I think I'm back on track. For starters, I have just completed my mid-term exam which is wonderful cos I don't have to think much about it, for now. I must say, the questions were rather hard, at least for a person a like me (I'm in the average group) and ouh, lets not put our predictions on the results, I'm so hoping for the best. Okay, put all of that aside now shall we, its school break! ohh yeah! Recently, I have been getting involved in lots of activities and one of it includes, 'Speech Choir'. However, don't get too excited laughing at me, cos I've actually been kicked out, *sigh -_- . Never mind that, I'm not so sure why I've joined it in the first place anyway (actually, its for the sake of the certificate). Yeah, I've never made it at the competition as a contestant, but I've made it there as a spectator. Frankly speaking, it was hard watching these people having fun putting their energy out there on stage, giving their 100% in everything they've been working on and it pays off when they've managed to grab the first spot which had qualified them for sectionals (third place, tough competition). Apparently, I did gained some goods out of it, and the experience is simply priceless. I've decided to move on and not to put some sort of grudge over something silly, no offense. And ouh, totally totally forgot about my birthday. So yeah, it was one fine day on May 13, 2010 and it was the most awesome birthday celebration since forever. Well, looking at it, its pretty simple on how the celebration was, but the only thing that matters is that I'm celebrating it with my classmates! I mean, they're the one who've been planning the whole thing, the cupcakes, the 'flour warfare', surprises and I only got to know them in less that a year, woaw . I must say, for the past 3 years I've been in this school, this is like one of the things that will remain in my fondest memory and what makes the memory much more fun is the part where all of us were called to the disciplinary room for the whole 'flour warfare' thing since we're having it in the class. But then, my classmates did'nt want me to be there, at the disciplinary room cos they've told me that I was all 'innocent' and that the whole 'flour warfare' was their idea. Honestly, I feel bad for not going, but I am impressed on how they acted in this kind of situation and I can't thank them more :) Moving on, 2 weeks ago, I went to Kenyir Lake with my family members. My cousins, aunties, uncles everyone was there. It was great for its my first time to do such activity with my family. Alright, at first, we needed to board a boat to get to the 'Kelah sanctuary' where they preserves 'Kelah' fish. After that, we were told to go for a little jungle trekking where there were leaches in all shapes and sizes (I was bitten, once). Wehee. Then, after having our lunch, we went to the waterfall where the water were extremely cold and everything went great! it was totally awesome. We went home all tired and happy, wohoo! Okay so, I was in KL in a few days back, spent my cash on a brand new guitar and now I'm back in Terengganu, -_- sigh. I'm not quite sure on how to spend another week here with such boredem. Hangout maybe? I don't know. Let's just see to how far will this boredem lasts, think I'll stop now. Good Day :)
I have not been writing anything for the longest time and the excitement of it had been left dilapidated. Even if it's coiled around such absurdity, who cares aite? So yeah, things have been great for me these day, Alhamdulillah. I love how things, environment, people has been painting my life and I think I'm back on track. For starters, I have just completed my mid-term exam which is wonderful cos I don't have to think much about it, for now. I must say, the questions were rather hard, at least for a person a like me (I'm in the average group) and ouh, lets not put our predictions on the results, I'm so hoping for the best. Okay, put all of that aside now shall we, its school break! ohh yeah! Recently, I have been getting involved in lots of activities and one of it includes, 'Speech Choir'. However, don't get too excited laughing at me, cos I've actually been kicked out, *sigh -_- . Never mind that, I'm not so sure why I've joined it in the first place anyway (actually, its for the sake of the certificate). Yeah, I've never made it at the competition as a contestant, but I've made it there as a spectator. Frankly speaking, it was hard watching these people having fun putting their energy out there on stage, giving their 100% in everything they've been working on and it pays off when they've managed to grab the first spot which had qualified them for sectionals (third place, tough competition). Apparently, I did gained some goods out of it, and the experience is simply priceless. I've decided to move on and not to put some sort of grudge over something silly, no offense. And ouh, totally totally forgot about my birthday. So yeah, it was one fine day on May 13, 2010 and it was the most awesome birthday celebration since forever. Well, looking at it, its pretty simple on how the celebration was, but the only thing that matters is that I'm celebrating it with my classmates! I mean, they're the one who've been planning the whole thing, the cupcakes, the 'flour warfare', surprises and I only got to know them in less that a year, woaw . I must say, for the past 3 years I've been in this school, this is like one of the things that will remain in my fondest memory and what makes the memory much more fun is the part where all of us were called to the disciplinary room for the whole 'flour warfare' thing since we're having it in the class. But then, my classmates did'nt want me to be there, at the disciplinary room cos they've told me that I was all 'innocent' and that the whole 'flour warfare' was their idea. Honestly, I feel bad for not going, but I am impressed on how they acted in this kind of situation and I can't thank them more :) Moving on, 2 weeks ago, I went to Kenyir Lake with my family members. My cousins, aunties, uncles everyone was there. It was great for its my first time to do such activity with my family. Alright, at first, we needed to board a boat to get to the 'Kelah sanctuary' where they preserves 'Kelah' fish. After that, we were told to go for a little jungle trekking where there were leaches in all shapes and sizes (I was bitten, once). Wehee. Then, after having our lunch, we went to the waterfall where the water were extremely cold and everything went great! it was totally awesome. We went home all tired and happy, wohoo! Okay so, I was in KL in a few days back, spent my cash on a brand new guitar and now I'm back in Terengganu, -_- sigh. I'm not quite sure on how to spend another week here with such boredem. Hangout maybe? I don't know. Let's just see to how far will this boredem lasts, think I'll stop now. Good Day :)
Monday, March 22, 2010
Some fond memories.
April is near and March is on its way of ending. Still, the on going things in the life of a human being never remain constant. And so, the first holiday semester had just passed a couple of days ago. Surprisingly, there had been a lot of things going on which had surpasses my expectations. Frankly, I would've thought my holidays would turns out dull and boring but some unusual circumstances had proved me wrong. Lets just skip this part for I don't have the desire to talk about what has been going on with my life, well, at least during the holidays. Apparently, a very good friend of mine had just transferred to a boarding school. A friend whom I've never expected to get close with when I was in form 1 for the way we got to know each other was rather unusual but then, form 2 changes everything. Up until now, I'm still uncertain on how does it happen, how did we got so close back then but it just happen and I realize that it was actually a miraculous encounter. Upon knowing each other, we had shared lots of things together aside from exchanging views and perspectives on stuffs that we usually talks about and during the weekends, we hangout as the ultimate 14 years old girl who are capable of exploring this new perpetual social world which she knows a lot about more than I do. But that was back then, things changes from years to years as we're growing matured. Somehow, its less seeing and talking. Now that she has moved, everything is pretty much hard to predict. Recalling these fond memories and experiences that we had encountered together are just tremendous and had as well made me oblivious to the clock that are tickings. I got school tomorrow so most probably I should be going to bed by now. Ohh and I've never actually confess this but, Fatheah Khalid, you are one incredibly amazing and unpredictable girl. You are a friend, and I wish you knew how much had I been missing you and our conversation together. Please live a great life out there. Good Night :)
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