Online shopping?!

Heyyya peeps!

I don't even know where to start when I first thought of updating my blog,  I literally had to look for the link at my facebook page, that's just how bad it is -.- I mean, Hellooo? its MY OWN FREAKING BLOG for goodness' sake =.=' and yes,  it has been awhileeeee (I've mentioned pretty much the same thing on my previous posts) since I've written anything, and I mean anything at all since foreverrr!

Okay, those statements were too overly-dramatized hihi 

So anyways,

life has been good lately, Alhamdulillah (I thanked You for every possibilities that You had made possible and those endless guidance that is still keeping me on the right path, thank you Allah). 

These past few weeks had been a lot of things, emotions that is to me, unpredictable (I guess Billy Joe did try to warned me in his 'time of your life', I should have listened? oh well.) Oh no wait, did I say emotions? like seriously? Imma screwed that up now, my writing method need a major adjustment ASAP! 

I know for a fact that the things I've written before was a whole lots of ... well it ain't crap, but I should have regarded this blogging space more as a place to share thoughts/views on such a significant scale rather than keeping it as a diary (ain't a bad thing either) and of course putting my passion of expressing these views in a way that is more, straight forward and maybe filling it with a much more vibrant topics/discussions. 

Looking back at it, its overwhelming to see the transformation for me, being the person I was (judging from my style of writing) into becoming the person I've become and y'know, things like how my way of thinking had evolved && stuffs, finding its way into maturity :')

But heck, lets not do the whole life-changing-lovey-dovey-moment thing, done that a gazillion times. 

What I really wanted to blog about right now is, my current/all-time favorite pastimes, yes you guessed it right, MAKEUPS <3 and online shopping! && maybe, some other 'additional' things *ranging from playing/experimenting with it, to shopping all the essentials! (well, I'll be blogging mainly about online shopping but since makeups are my ultimate favorite thing, I listed it out first hee)

*Just a very quick background check; 
Not that it matters so much but yeah makeups has been my ultimate obsession since my childhood years and that hasn't changed till now.
Personally, its the one thing that I feel would live within me for years to come! yeayy!

*Note to my future husband <3 ; let me quote this;
"It is not my naked/makeup-free complexion that should be your uppermost concern. Well, probably it should, but only during the two-weeks-period before my annual menstruation process *y'know its the time of the month where parasitic zits started to invade these fragile, fragile complexion of mine and its also that period of time where my uncontrollable moodswings would be something your patience needs to cater* but honey, as an early preparation to combat whatever it is that is coming your our way, start saving now! cos I'm your ultimate supershopper! *winks* maybe soon, you shall know why hihi"
Right, so now I've literally got a whole life planned out for me, no? oh well =.='
 *I have no idea WTH am I talking about. y'know, ignore the whole statement stated above it does not   make any sense, at all. So, mind me.

So yeah, recently I was granted with some extra $$ from the two-most-important people in my life, PARENTS! (the door of sustenance are wider for those who are willing to work) and so, I had been involved in some online shopping!!
First thing first,
y'know there's always this part in a movie where when women/girls went for a shopping spree for no apparent reasons and how the payment bills went crazy, yeah.... well that didn't happened to me (thanked god, hihi)

What did happened though,
is that I purchased some of my favorite things; MAKEUPS! (I ain't gonna mention the billing parts, duhh?!&$%)
it was nothing much, really *aside from getting some awesome eyeshadow/blusher palette, makeup brushes && some other makeup tools <3 I've always wanted to own these palettes and tools but was told that I was too young to put on makeups, NOT ANYMOREEE!  to finally owning these stuffs feels like a dream come true!  *exaggerations alert!

Anyways,
I've been successfully (let me repeat that, SUCCESSFULLY!) pulling off a few looks that I learned from YouTube tutorials(the power of technology) and sometimes having my own 'Michelle Phan' moment (one of the most sought-after-makeup-guru on YouTube!) when nobody's around.
It was such an awesome awesome ways for me to spend sadly, what's left of my holidays before starting off to college :'( (I shall be doing another entry on colleges and stuffs, hopefully soon!)

But hey,
at least I'm ending my holidays doing the things that I love right? right? right?! *postive energy draws in* this is so pathetic, I'm not prepared this! *face palm. 

So yeah, for me, getting your favorite things doesn't need you to reasoned with anything but you surely do need to know your boundaries, *I know online shopping is an extremely risky deal in terms of frauds and pretty much anything, but I've taken some extra precautionary measures and Alhamdulillah so far everything is alright* and as a matter of fact, online shopping are quite wide these days. I wouldn't say it has becoming a trend or anything, but I do find a lot of people of all ages adults/youngsters preferring to shop online, instead of going to the mall. (who loves traffics right?)

But of course,

when there are pros then there will be cons, its the rule!

From what I know and pretty much experienced,
online shopping offers a wider choices/options in choosing your favorite things, both locally and internationally. Next is of course, getting the best price. I find a lot of websites offering a much lower price on the exact items you usually find at the mall. The best part is that it can be delivered right to your doorstep after payment has been made *in terms of payment, there are also a list of options in dealing with it (online banking, atm deposit, paypal etc.) so unassumingly, traffics can be avoided (unless you chose to do atm deposit, which requires to go to the bank). I guess these are some of the pros listed out for me.

As for the cons,
I would make finding a trusted seller/dealer and websites my main priorities, simply because its the single-most-crucial criteria to look for in order to avoid frauds. Second thing would be dealing with a very rude and fussy seller/dealer whom obviously does not put customer's service first! thirdly, you are prone to the addiction of shopping online (it is never a good thing and never will be, trust me) which may lead you to spend more $$ than you ever needed on things that are unnecessary *that's why its called addiction* Lastly, waiting for the shipment which by far, my least favorite thing ever to deal with. Sometimes, these 'responsible people' promised to deliver your items in this particular time, but it turns out, the waits kept on being delayed (nobody likes a long wait, right?) but so far, I think I've been dealing with the right people so delayed deliveries are no longer my biggest concerned.

Online sellers/dealers  are humans too and maybe sometimes, they made mistakes (everyone does) maybe they overlooked your order or whatsoever. But some of these honest people worked hard to earn their income, and I appreciate those who had been treating their customers well, thank you for being very polite,and most importantly, honest (technically, it wasn't the easiest thing to do especially when you have to deal with hundreds and hundreds of customers)
I would also like to thank the people who are responsible in delivering the stuffs, mainly to the company that I've dealt with before; (poslaju, skynet, kangaroo etc.) thank you for the awesome service!

Bottom line is,

there are a lot of things to put in consideration before starting any transactions online.

Be sure to put forward the things that you need to bare with and most importantly is to have patience, always set your mind in the most rational state possible.
Just for the record, I'm not recommending you guys to shop online or whatsoever,
its just that for a person like me and maybe those who can relate to this, its hard for me to shop for certain favorite things of mine here (referring to where I resides) it is highly impossible *well, almost.

For whatever reasons there might be ,
I am not to be blamed for keeping this morbid obsession  as a past-time-thing (I mean, look at me, I am a sophisticated young woman, I was born to strive in pride!)


"People are meant to do, what they were meant to do"

p/s: Don't ever judge me just because you don't like the things that I do. In my defense, I never really understand why 'boys' were soo into DOTA? Grow up already -.- such 'games' are just Lame (see what I just did, I judged 'boys'. oh well.)

Positive thinking

Assalamulaikum, Hi.
   I'm here trying to improve certain personal things, in many ways and aspects.

To begin with, we are almost at the end of February, the second month of 2012. The past few weeks has been, I dunno, crazy, haywire, bored, fun, devastating, challenging, sad and sometimes lost. If i were to list everything that I had encountered with, its gonna be too overwhelming and I guess no one cares, right? So yeah, yesterday for instance, I went through a very heartbreaking ordeal with my JPJ test and I guess up until now, I can't stop mourning over it, not sure why. I thought of it over and over, blaming myself for I don't really know what. It just got me thinking that I was at my stupidest for expecting too much out of it, I always do, in everything. But then it got to me that, I have to accept things the way they are.
    I'm very glad, for the positive words of wisdom that I've received sincerely from my family and friends. They are the greatest support system from Allah swt and I'm very thankful that He surrounded me with this beautiful, beautiful group of people in my life. I may be one of the person who doesn't forget things easily, but predicaments were to happen for valid reasons. I didn't blame God for whatever happens to me, I thanked Him dearly for the things that had taught me, the great values of LIFE, Alhamdulillah. So my advice to those who are in search of inner peace, try asking Allah swt, pray to Him and leave your strongest faith in Him. He will always be there for you if make the effort to get closer to Him, InsyaAllah.

A December's starter day.

Hello :)
So SPM is pretty much over, Alhamdulillah I can't be more thankful. I mean, it was a huge pressure going on and on for the past 10 months, preparing to face it. Sometimes, these preparations hit me with tons and tons of temptations that's been feeding my soul, decisions and sacrifices to make (though facing it was overwhelming, I'm now matured enough to decide for the best in advanced). Part of it was a whole lot of elements that sometimes left me suffocating, now that its over, I guess everyone deserves to breathe again, including me. As for the outcomes of it, I leave it to God, to decide and hopefully, I'll be as accepting as I could in my determined fate which I sure do hope for the best.
      Recently, people all around me (those who are currently SPM-free) had been talking about plans. 70% decided to take up driver's license, some other parts of it had decided on finding a job, going on holidays and vice versa. For me, I started my long-term holiday going back to be the epic potato couch I was, re-catching some tv shows that I've been missing on and I even started my new chapter of tv shows marathon yesterday,  it felt so damn good as uber freedom embraces me. But obviously, that wasn't just it, I mean I do have plans in advanced, I am one the 70% people who's about to register to get a driver's licence which happens to be a must nowadays, in this globalized era. I could also be in the group of people who's currently on job hunting, working experience could somehow be fun!
    And so, I'm not quite sure of what's coming ahead (obviously, no one does) but I think there're going to be a lot to deal with (again, obviously, you just don't deal with one thing in life, it is not always that simple), good or bad, like it or not, its the favors of life that I'm pretty much looking forward to render. I'm 17 now, within a few months from now, I'll turn 18 and yes time flies whether or not we choose to ignore it, there is no stopping time. Growing matured has its ultimate price and pretty sure there're a lot more decisions to be made  soon. So future, I'm expecting for the best and sure am preparing for the worst.
    High school life has been tremendously bitter-sweet or maybe an extra pinch of sour-tangy? So its a bitter-sweet-sour-tangy experience? I don't know, these things are for the individuals to rate. As for me, I have been dividing it into portions, of moments. I'm not looking forward to go down the memory lane either, so the goods are for the memories to be kept, the bads, well I learned and grew a lot from it so I couldn't be more appreciative of both. 11 years is a long time, that's how long I've been in school uniform and recently ended the contract to wear them via SPM. It is as well, a life-changing experience.
     I'm still in the atmosphere of asking myself, what's next? and still wondering, trying to re-evaluate things that got me thinking. Practically things like, how do I actually got here, blogging? I'm not a blogger and frankly speaking  I'm not looking forward to have collections of  followers, but for those who has been, and still are following, thank you. I write because I don't happen to have a diary to fit my whole life in. Writing is fun, expressing feelings makes everyone feels better so what's not to like about blogging right? *positive energies drawing in. I guess that's it for today, hopefully I will be keeping myself updated on writing pretty soon (a super-awesome-beneficial thing to spend my holiday with). Good day everyone :)

Reality check.

"Hi.
So what's happening right now is, my unstable emotion had won over me. In words of redundancy, that's exactly what's happening.

My big question is how do you deal with things that's hurting you in your deepest guts? My count of answer is, no you don't deal with it, you don't tell people about it (who would even wanna give a piece of mind, all they do is judge) and , don't even think of solving it. Let them eat you ALIVE. For all I know, the most awful thing created on mother earth is, heartless, senseless people who had promised you lies they can't fulfill."
- Anonymous

Oh hey, you're growing old.

Hello. What's up?
    So, I've been thinking of things that had been evolving silently around me. Things that I had never thought of happening. Things that gave me the lessons of life to keep me going strong, to support every each day that passes me by. And yes,  I'm still learning to accept it the way it is. The way God had stated is to be like.

   At some point of my life, I took my own time to contemplates about things that I've been going through for the pass 16 years, the age of my breathing. I know most people would recognize their contemplations in their very own ways. They would have their own moments to think about live, how had they painted them. Being pretty occupied with these painting job, did they ever try to turn and take a look at the picture they've came out with? how did the picture turns out to be? The word good or bad doesn't define your master piece. Its how you, yourself view it, is the matter that counts.

   Now, trekking down old memories sometimes put me in tears.There were joys too back then which are just priceless to forget. First I was 13,  trying to be the coolest. And then came 14, things get a little more exciting with boyfriends. Soon, came 15, I was struggling with PMR but managed to keep my balance with my inevitable social stuffs, after that 16, the happiest year to date as it was the most astounding, memorable and just too much too tell. I just love being 16, surrounded with the most awesome people, so yeah, back on track, I'm turning 17 in less than a month now. Its the perfect time to think back about what has been going on these past years. I had my favorite teachers, schoolmates, classmates, boyfriends, friends, best friends and now, cliques. I can't tell for how much these things had been affecting my life in a way, but it does. In fact, it had affected my whole life, playing its respective parts in shaping my life perfectly as it should be.

    For years, I've been wondering how growing matured would be like and now, I'm pretty much capable of capturing the essence of it. I've dealt with situations differently than I had, years ago. I've becoming wiser and I took charge of the decisions that I made. So these are the littlest things that I'm proud of. Never in whole life had I wanted to lose these precious moments, let alone erasing it from my thoughts. But for me, repeating it would not be an option. Its perfect the way it is and I wouldn't want to change even the darkest part of it for it had given me a life time lesson.

   Right now, I'm hoping for the best in life despite the fact that you wouldn't know or wouldn't wanna know how it'd perpetuates later on. My best advice is to appreciate whatever you had been granted with and make the best out of it.

Lyrics.

Hello. Okay first thing first, I miss blogging. Awww!
Its been more than a month ago I guess since my last posts and its already March 30th 2011. Great, another month is passing us by as we know it and for those who are still oblivious to this, you're welcome (its nothing, really. Just playing my part in reminding you guys). So yeah, a lot of things has been going on as usual and ouh, SPM, yeah that thing is currently invading my life and I'm umm well partially committing myself for the sake of it. That's right people, COMMITMENT. I don't usually deal well with commitment, which means that I don't commit myself to anything. But for this, my imminent future, yes. I mean, what other options do I have and so, commitment it is. Enough of that, I'll  have more rest next year. Probably one whole year which equals to ample of time for everything. So yeah, that sounds fair to me. Alright now,  I don't actually wish to write much about what's going on with my life, this month or whatsoever. I just want to share a song from Red Chelle Rae - Bleed. Its an awesome, awesome song, I love it so much, and here are the lyrics. Enjoy :D
 

 Red Chelle Rae - Bleed

I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear
That you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth

I'll bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here (I'm dying here)
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I'll bleed my heart out just for you
I've always dreamed about this moment
And now it's here and I've turned to stone
I stand here petrified
As I look you in your eyes
My head is ready to explode

I'll bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I'll bleed my heart out just for you

And it's all here in
Black and white and red
For all the times
Those words were never said

I'll bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I'll bleed my heart out just for you

I'll bleed my heart out just for you.

Secret's Out!

Hello, weehee.

I gotta say, today is a bless for I've finally opened up to a friend about this thing I've kept to myself for way to long. And I meant wayy wayy to long. It wasn't that hard after all. Well, not really.

The 'incident' occurred when were talking and chit chatting while waiting (geesh, that somehow rhymes. In a not so familiar way) for our additional mathematics class. I somehow had that sudden urge to just open up to her, I don't know where that 'urge' really resurfaced from, it just did. Odd enough. So yeah, at first it was really really hard. I was laughing and giggling and shaking(shaking?) the whole time. I told her " Omg Tee, I'm soo scared. I've never told anyone just yet. Like ever." and she was like "Alah, bagitau jelah. You've been keeping this for too long." and then, I've decided to use the safest way which is... to let her guess. That works though, she somehow had suspected it for too long (shame on me, I was trying hard to conceal it from people) and I'm super glad that the thing I was uttering is indeed, understandable. Well, at least to her. For now, I've once again really really had learn my lesson. No matter how bad it is, you gotta have faith on your friend. I had mine and the time was perfect, I couldn't be more thankful. I gotta tell you, it feels soo good and looking back at these things later, you're gonna appreciate it more. I know I will :D

So my credits are reserves for you Tee, thanks for listening.