Contemplations.

Hey.
I'm currently in need of a little writing for something had driven me to this.
and worst,
I CANT sleep. ARGHH!

Hello people,
So yeah, that was quite an odd starter, for a strongly civilized people.
I've been thinking lately. Well actually, contemplates. On the scenarios that's precariously evolved around me. I might be stressed, but I can't be sure. Because sometimes, we're misjudged by the superficial. The actual thing is, I am tired. Tired of thinking on ways to shift my unneeded thoughts to something else, to please people everywhere and to search for the uncertainty. I'm just immensely exhausted. Would these things lead me somewhere? to a better path? because I am desperately in search of happiness which is of course, should be thoroughly understand and properly defined.

Good Night.

dee-cem-berr.

Well, its actually 'December' with the wrongest spelling. Good Morning and Hi.

Recently, I've posted something I've kept to myself for long and the result, MAJOR heartbreak. So this is a very good advice to spread. Don't keep these kind of things to yourself because if you're not strong enough, you could end up being very vulnerable, just like me. And if only you had shared it before with someone you trust, the fact would be different. I mean, it should hurt less since you have someone to confide in and the result, well LESS grieve stricken for sure. But that's a different story, what I really want to convey here is, for the moment, I'm glad to say that I've moved on. I'm not pretty sure about next year, but hey, time would heal things and I solely believe in that.

      So yeah, some lucky people had read the 'thing' I've posted, clearly weeks ago (probably had it removed by now). It was a very long writing, well the longest I've written so far I guess and what I've got to say is, thank you. For the feedback and advices. I must admit, that was by far, the strangest thing I did in my writings. Preferably, blog writings. Though there is nothing wrong about that, it somehow did sounds a little 'abusive'. Needless to say, it was the result of being in a massive heartbreak and for not trusting people to open up these things. I've learned valuable lessons in dealing with both, an unexpected heartbreak and trusting people with your problems and when I mentioned 'dealing' surely does meant that I've dealt with it. Well, remnants of it.

        Lets just leave that behind. In fact, lets just leave all of the bad things you've dealt with far far behind for you've learned and gained more once you've experienced it firsthand. Don't assume mistakes as a bad element that resurface in your life. Its there for a reason. A very valid reason.  It makes you a stronger person. A tough person who could render through the worst tornado. Cliche'? yeah, noticed that too. As cheesy as it sounds, you can't deny living facts. You go by its rules, you live by it.

        Alright now, 2010's coming to an end, there are a lot to look at , a lot to reminisce, a lot to treasure, a lot to keep and a lot to let go. I believe that we had rendered difficult journeys and beat the odds in our lives that are sometimes hard to decipher, translate and to understand but it transform us into a different person, day by day, experience by experience. We never know what will lies ahead, for a future had been written and stored for us.  

Good Luck, in dealing with the unexpected.

  

Be surprised, its already July-August-September-OCTOBER!

Hello,
Believe it or not, we're already in the midst of October .How time flies, lets just retrace the things that had happend in the past 3 months. Alright, so the final weeks July had been incredibly hectic for me. Apparently I got involved in activities that are, well, umm school based? I don't know if its not the pleasurous time to spend for others, but it is a heck of a fun for me. Since July marks its end for the extra co-curricular activities throughout the year 2010, there were joyous ceremonies held, according to its very own occasions. July 24th marks a remarkable history for SMKSS as his royal highness, the paramount ruler of the state pays a little visit. Sadly, I was not there to witness the whole ceremony since I have to attend my cousin's wedding reception, which is also the most awesome thing ever since there were hot dudes there (awww!). Back to the story, so in about a week after that, we had this drama thing going on and all of the form 4 students were involved. It was an undeniably awesome experience, I mean the whole preparations and practices did really paid off. Although we did not grab any spot for the place-ings, I'm greatly thankful as the whole drama turns out to be unexpectedly FUN! and ouh right now, we've past the fasting month, that's right, the holy month of Ramadhan and we've celebrated Hari Raya as well in Syawal of course. Regarding the Hari Raya celebration, we did'nt have much feasts, it was rather on the "OK" term as I labelled it. September had past, and since we're already in the midst of October, lets just render through it!

2nd semester of school break, yippie!

Heyho,
I have not been writing anything for the longest time and the excitement of it had been left dilapidated. Even if it's coiled around such absurdity, who cares aite? So yeah, things have been great for me these day, Alhamdulillah. I love how things, environment, people has been painting my life and I think I'm back on track. For starters, I have just completed my mid-term exam which is wonderful cos I don't have to think much about it, for now. I must say, the questions were rather hard, at least for a person a like me (I'm in the average group) and ouh, lets not put our predictions on the results, I'm so hoping for the best. Okay, put all of that aside now shall we, its school break! ohh yeah! Recently, I have been getting involved in lots of activities and one of it includes, 'Speech Choir'. However, don't get too excited laughing at me, cos I've actually been kicked out, *sigh -_- . Never mind that, I'm not so sure why I've joined it in the first place anyway (actually, its for the sake of the certificate). Yeah, I've never made it at the competition as a contestant, but I've made it there as a spectator. Frankly speaking, it was hard watching these people having fun putting their energy out there on stage, giving their 100%  in everything they've been working on and it pays off when they've managed to grab the first spot which had qualified them for sectionals (third place, tough competition). Apparently, I did gained some goods out of it, and the experience is simply priceless. I've decided to move on and not to put some sort of grudge over something silly, no offense. And ouh, totally totally forgot about my birthday. So yeah, it was one fine day on May 13, 2010 and it was the most awesome birthday celebration since forever. Well, looking at it, its pretty simple on how the celebration was, but the only thing that matters is that I'm celebrating it with my classmates! I mean, they're the one who've been planning the whole thing, the cupcakes, the 'flour warfare', surprises and I only got to know them in less that a year, woaw . I must say, for the past 3 years I've been in this school, this is like one of the things that will remain in my fondest memory and what makes the memory much more fun is the part where all of us were called to the disciplinary room for the whole 'flour warfare' thing since we're having it in the class. But then, my classmates did'nt want me to be there, at the disciplinary room cos they've told me that I was all 'innocent' and that the whole 'flour warfare' was their idea. Honestly, I feel bad for not going, but I am impressed on how they acted in this kind of situation and I can't thank them more :) Moving on, 2 weeks ago, I went to Kenyir Lake with my family members. My cousins, aunties, uncles everyone was there. It was great for its my first time to do such activity with my family. Alright, at first, we needed to board a boat to get to the 'Kelah sanctuary' where they preserves 'Kelah' fish. After that, we were told to go for a little jungle trekking where there were leaches in all shapes and sizes (I was bitten, once). Wehee. Then, after having our lunch, we went to the waterfall where the water were extremely cold and everything went great! it was totally awesome. We went home all tired and happy, wohoo! Okay so, I was in KL in a few days back, spent my cash on a brand new guitar and now I'm back in Terengganu, -_- sigh. I'm not quite sure on how to spend another week here with such boredem. Hangout maybe? I don't know. Let's just see to how far will this boredem lasts, think I'll stop now. Good Day :)

Some fond memories.

April is near and March is on its way of ending. Still, the on going things in the life of a human being never remain constant. And so, the first holiday semester had just passed a couple of days ago. Surprisingly, there had been a lot of things going on which had surpasses my expectations. Frankly, I would've thought my holidays would turns out dull and boring but some unusual circumstances had proved me wrong. Lets just skip this part for I don't have the desire to talk about what has been going on with my life, well, at least during the holidays. Apparently, a very good friend of mine had just transferred to a boarding school. A friend whom I've never expected to get close with when I was in form 1 for the way we got to know each other was rather unusual but then, form 2 changes everything. Up until now, I'm still uncertain on how does it happen, how did we got so close back then but it just happen and I realize that it was actually a miraculous encounter. Upon knowing each other, we had shared lots of things together aside from exchanging views and perspectives on stuffs that we usually talks about and during the weekends, we hangout as the ultimate 14 years old girl who are capable of exploring this new perpetual social world which she knows a lot about more than I do. But that was back then, things changes from years to years as we're growing matured. Somehow, its less seeing and talking. Now that she has moved, everything is pretty much hard to predict. Recalling these fond memories and experiences that we had encountered together are just tremendous and had as well made me oblivious to the clock that are tickings. I got school tomorrow so most probably I should be going to bed by now. Ohh and I've never actually confess this but,  Fatheah Khalid, you are one incredibly amazing and unpredictable girl. You are a friend, and I wish you knew how much had I been missing you and our conversation together. Please live a great life out there. Good Night :)

A visit.

Hello,
So yesterday my first visit to the old folks home was quite amazing. It does'nt actually reach my expectation on how it's going to be like, I mean, its far different. The visit and shopping was conducted by the Rotary Club of Kuala Terengganu and its a joint project between SMKCHWS and SMKSS. I did'nt have much of a conversation with the old folks, but I manage to learn a couple of stories about them. At first, we went to the house and take a look around just to get to know the place and the people there before we went shopping. After that, we boarded the bus and head to our destination, Mydin Mall. When we reached there, we were separated in groups. Each group consist of two people and a folk. Our task that day is to assist the folks during shopping and some part of it is to cheer them up. So yeah, as easy as it look, it is actually quite a challenge for us especially to communicate with them as some of them can't barely speak well. The shopping took an estimation two and a half hours which is no that long. Soon after that, we head back to the old folks house and had our lunch there. After everything was settled, we boarded the bus and head back to school. But there was this one shocking incident that had made the visit much more memorable, an old lady tried to escape but to no avail as one of my schoolmate managed to stop her. It is learn that the old lady had been sent there for the past three days and that she can't actually adapt herself to the surrounding just yet, poor lady. So yeahh, all said and done, everything had been a remarkable experience for me and I wish to gain more in the future. Good night :)

After the short break.

HELLO,
Right. for this time, Godeng's the one who's asking me to continue writing. && its Godeng. NOT tee or whoever. weird I know. Whatever then. So okay, holiday. Woaw, the whole week I've spent was absolutely fine and simple. I'm pretty glad that nothing much had brought me down during those days. Cool. And ouh, the engagement was pretty.. well, its too complex to explain. Lots of things had been going on there and the best part, hot dudes. Ohh yeahh! I would say, the most unfortunate thing that had happen to me there is the part where my ultimate flats screws itself and that Ive to rip off the base. So you get the point, my flats were base-less the whole night. Nice -,- Moving on, school's has been great lately. My classmates are just incredible and aside from their friendly-ness, they've cheered me up a lot. I can't describe for how crazy this thing is, but I'm totally thankful of it, that I can actually laugh the way I used to. I must admit, I do miss my girlfriends at times. I mean, zero hangout and less talking is not the thing I've wished for to happen. I do very much understand their hectic schedule and the things they're involve in. Sometimes, I just feel like the gap between us is getting wider and wider. Frankly, I'm not trying to point my finger blaming them for this. Ive made mistakes of my own and as much as I'm trying to patch things up, I can't really push anyone to overcome these matter in an instant. There are ways to solve things and one of they ways is to stay patient and just do what you do which is what I'm doing now. I will put myself in a very deep self-control and being very very patient in facing the hardships ahead. Just go with the flow. One thing I'm glad of is that Ive been getting new friends and I love the fact that they're really really nice to me. Well, the thing I'm not so glad of is that my studies are getting worst. Add math, history and chemistry = total bullshit and ouh, I forgot one more thing, I have to do some visiting at the old folks tomorrow. Its my first visit and Ill try to make an experience out of it. I better stop now. I got too much of mosquitoes bite everywhere. Goodnight.